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i love you Earl John Del Valle : )

First song i ever listen that was related to you was:
Stunned -Wisnu

we've been through so much and still be together at the end. I've said this to you already, but your different to any other guy that I've dated and the best boyfriend i ever had. You know what i like best from everyone and you always there for me when i have my down moment and when i have no-one there to talk to.. no-one can replace the love we share. Every time I'm with you i get speechless the only words that just comes out of my mouth is "i love you or i miss you"

Its funny how we were too good for each other hahah! remember?!
but look where we end up aye. :P


Wednesday 29th;
Right now I'm talking to you, and it driving me insane just talking to you online, cause we haven't talking to each other all day, me not hearing your voice doesn't make my day complete or even not seeing you. Sighhh what ever i do, i end up thinking about you :(
Earl John to me is what i call everything, i know that it typical for girl to say about a guy she going out and that. But this time i know this guy is what i truly call "EVERYTHING!" cause whatever i do its end with him, like i don't know why... its just him that makes him so interesting out of all guys i know or dated.
But all i know that i love him for him, nothing else he doesn't need to impress me to get my attention, he got my attention at hello :P And i definitely got his attention too hahah!

i have so many songs that can explain how i feel about him, I'm just not bothered to name them all....here some verses of some songs.

"Damn baby i miss you so much wanna hear your voice,
wanna feel your touch wanna feel your heart beating next to mines"

" Two 'o clock and I wish that I was sleeping
You're in my head like a song on the radio
All I know is that I got to get next to you
Yeah I got to get next to you
Sitting here turning minutes into hours
To find the nerve just to call you on the telephone
You don't know that I got to get next to you"

(8) Until -RL {Of Next}

i can go on forever on this blog about Earl J D.

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Note:

- FIND A NEW JOB SOOON
- Go for my L's before the end of this month NOV
- Get my new phone $29 Cap
- Print our my photos for tafe
- START on my portfoilo
- SAVE MONEY ASAP!
- Pay off jersey money to ava this sunday or asap
- buy new clothes plus shoes from hype DC and footlocker
- re-dye my hair ASAP
- try buy ink for printer ASAP!
- buy clothes for interviews coming up

result

Apparenlty got woken at 6am in the morning by my dad, and telling me off to buy my sister a cake for today cause they have a fete on i think soon. And like i actually got dress to go buy my sister a cake but instead of buying it at 7 11 shops, had to walk alll the way to the other side of guildford station to buy it. I can't believe i was bother to walk there to buy a 6 dollar cake. But it was a good walk, during walking i was thinking about things and a person.

Couldn't sleep last night, pretty much not botherd to work today, and im being serious i don't think i can handle with another problem after yesterday. Work is giving me the shitts already and like i just don't know what to do at them moment. Im like lagging on getting ready to work even though it my last shift for the week before i have the weekends off. But im book'd for the weekends aswell got tafe tommorow morning and then got a basketball game on sunday at 2:15pm, where i don't think i can play, which i don't know why sighh!

So much things on my mind right now.

"in reply back"

Bestfriend ?

First thing? DON'T BLAME YOUR SELF for what happening now. I basically started this problem i should end. Life is one thing that you don't want to stuff up, esp with a friendship and the person that your really close with. And that knows everything about you... well basically knows everything about everything that has happen to you and would never tell a soul to anyone about your life situation. Right now! i have nothing close to that now, as harsh it sound but i try everything to get your friendship again and said so many sorry to you.. But i didn't get anything, not even a "i accept your apologize" and from that i know that i definitely ruined the friendship we have. And it will never be the same again. i really try my best to get things how they were before but all that end up with nothing.

i just don't what else to say cause im so hurt that i didn't want you to see me cry over this.

Quote.

"I believe that everything happens for a reason.People change so that you can learn to let go,things go wrong so that you can appreciate them when they're right,you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself,and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together."

thoughts.

currently things are falling apart and I've really notice, I'm starting to become anti-social with the people I'm really close to esp the ones that was there from the beginning. Latlie I'm either busy for things that's around me and focusing on work and tafe. But at the end of each day, i realise that i have so much things to talk about, but i have no-one to talk to expect one person. That one person has moved on from our friendship to another :( and like i don't want to sound that they have one best friend to be with. It just i used to have people that was there for me to talk about things that been bothering me or just there for a catch up.

But i think that I'm not the one they want to talk to. Like I'm the boring type. I try my best to be there for my sisters and dad since I'm the oldest one in the family now. I have the big responsibility to be taking, under the pressure of work and tafe. Esp with work giving me the shitts latlie and put me under alot of stress for me at the moment. Wish i could have the people i "used" to be close again. Cause all i know is that my friendship slowing die-ing out.

But thats how life rolls right?!
lose friendships and gain new one some-how...

Night Shooting at City.

learned new techniques hahahah!
Amanda my tafe classmate, she cool bro! we have our own talks esp with ryan too, full brag about this guy in our class, how "he knows it all" ahhahah tafe are the best, wish theey could go more than once a week man.

KABOOOM!

no word can explain how fun that night was! awesomeeee!

fahhhh out bro --'

today, got called in for work startd at 11-4pm nothing change expect for breaky startd everyone pretty much the same. I did drive through today and before i started work the drive through time was 4 mins :o, badddd! but i put it down to under 2:30min :D im getting better now on drive through hahah!

had no break, coz i started late then when it came to me finishing my shift went to but subway. Didn't eat all day --' hahah after i got my usually subway :D i FOUND OUT THAT MY MONEY WAS GONE!! that fuckers cheaps ass bro! literally all my money was GONE no coins was left, just all my cards and keycard and that was left! Just the money was gone had about $30 in my wallet before i started work.

fucking cheap ass workermates.
So i was left with no money, no money for me to get home

fuck yous seriously!

boring monday.

stayed home today, no work apparenlty so yeah

Sunny Sunday.

Got about 3-6 hour sleep i think, when i came home at 6ish am from clubbling hahah! Got straight out of bed with no lazy-ness accuring to me :S Went for a walk aournd the block to keep me awake for today. Come back after 1 hour and half, immarees like we got to get ready in 20mins so we can get to ball in time. HAHHA me and immaree full go ready before 12:40pm got to the station before 1-ish, train didnt come till 1:10 i think before that i got myself a "V" too kind keep me awake haha and listeing to upbeat songs to keep me jumpy :L

then got to KB, soo HOTTT! our game was at 2-ish so yeah go ready, then at the end we won our game 22-19 even though it was just a trial game this sunday is the actual game starts so yeah. Went home about 5-6ish, had to walk it from the station --' then when we got home we had to walk for about 1 hour and half :P AFTER that i died in my bed, well had a shower first of course cause i played ball and then yeah!

dancing till morning part 2.

waited in line at funky buddha, dom and her friends were weaing baller jersey expect me! hahah :L But tim had another spare jersey so i wore it, didn't want to be left out from the group. We all got in for FREE ! And even got FREE drinks from the bar.
Dancing dancing til 4ish am

Apparenlty didn't get home till 6ish am the latest i've been out with friends and boyfriend at they city, and i "ALMOST" got into trouble with dad. Was sooo tired coz i had to woke up early to do things and had bball game at 2ish.

dancing till morning.

A day where a "Saturday" are suppose to be the day out at the city esp at night : ), Firstly had to clean the whole house mop and vacuum. The typical chores for me that my daddy has giving me to do. Apparently spent 3 hours cleaning the whole house, btw I'm not making my house sound like its that dirty alright, just wanted to kill time lmao! :P During that time, was text message ejay about tonight and keep signing in and out of facebook to see if Dom reply back to me about her clubbing party haha!

After that i got lazy to do my other chores, so i decide to watch a dvd that my dad got us. It called the "Babylon A.D", its an alright movie fahhhh the girl in the movie shes hot, but shes a young girl haha! anyway then immaree got into the movie aswell hahha.
For the fact i had to get ready but 6ish to meet up with ejay, the movie didn't finish til 5ish ahah but i kinda took my time in getting ready for Dom's 18th clubbing nite. And then it started to rain out of no where --', where i didn't want to wait at the bus-stop wihile it was raining (refer-ing to my hair) hahahah! so i wait for dad to come :D. My twin sister kaecee took my little sister marielle out, and it was getting dark my dad called kaecee asking where they were.

Dad: "where are you na"
Kaecee: "Where eatting near john's mum house at a park"
Dad: Wheres that!
Kaceee: Plumptwn!
Dad: oh okay, what time you coming home, cause i have to drop stacee at Granville station and go to gorcey shopping after.
Kaecee: don't worry we'll drop her home after.
Dad alright then. bye!

there was more to that, in my dad and sister conversation to each other! Me and immaree ask'd where kaecee and marielle now.

Dad said to us "cumptown!"
Me and immaree: HUH!
Dad: near rootyhill
Me and immaree: OHH you mean PLUMPTOWN PAPA! LMAO!
Dad: "is it plumptown?, well it sounded like that when kaecee told me where she was!
Me and immaree: " HAHAH!"

After that dad drop me off at granville station haha and met up with ejay, he waited for me about 1 hour and abit at the station, talk about filo time :L hahaha! Train the city, where i called Dom asking where she was! she was on her way to the station haha! Me an ejay got to the city before them, meet up with them at maloney's for pre-drinks $3.50 cheap cheap :P After that we made our way to funky buddah at verndah bar theme nite was "Ballers nite".

read next blog for... too long for one blog hahha

friday friday

i forgot what i did on this day :L LOL!
i pretty much stayd home, didn't NOTHING! another boring day

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY DOM!
finally legal babe, hope you had an awsome bday
lovelove,.

beach as bitch bro!

mood: okay!
currently : full tired from today.

overall, i end up going to manly after ther dentist! ahhah bro my teeth feel ewww the filling i had to get feels like im chewing on rocks bro --'
full powerd walk it to merrylands station in time for the 1:30pm train to the city. Thank good that i got payd today :)
haha took about at less half an hour to get to city, in time for the ferry ride to manly which was leaving at 2:30. You don't know how much i hate ferry ride esp with the ferry going side to side and up and down --' Had to catch the ferry ride by my self, which was a goal for me it took badly another half an hour to get to manly, stupid ferry was going slow ass sighhhh! "

Got to the beach, had to use the public fone cause my fone was stuffing up and it was dead --' ejay meet up with me, btw i was hungry so got myself a kebab..saw everyone, said hi to them while eatting lol! Stayed at the beach for about 2 hours i think, then headed off back to blacktown with the others.
We drop ateh imelda off to mt drutti after blacktwn, then headed home!

bad day ><"

another day satying home, but end up going out with baby ejay :)! we suppose to meet up at 12pm, but i woke up at 12pm lol! {sleepy head} hahah. Took about half an hour to get dress cause the next bus come at 12:28 in front of my house. Stupid bus didn't come till like 10 min after sighhh --'

when i finally got to parramatta, ejay said "wanna got burwood" i said alright then since i haven't been to burwood ever. I was craving for some energy drink cause i was still half asleep and not thinking straight :P but anyway got to burwood, firstly ejay didn't know where he was going --' lol and he asking ME where burwood westfield was! I was like " hahha how i was suppose to know i haven't been here before". Burwood look pretty much as pernith westfield, big and that
We both walkd around, then ejay was hungry. Off to the foodcourts we go! funny thing was ejay keep asking me if was hungry then him --' we keep aguring about me being hungry or not! till at the end he bought me {foot long} subway and he got oportos.

After that went to go find me basketball shorts, since now im playing bball agen with the GDT girls :), i hope i don't stuff up cause i haven't been playing since year 11 --' stupid senior years wasn't aloud to play sports. We head'd back, ejay though i wanted to go home whicih i didn't know --' anyway on the way back to parra, there was an old guy sleeping and he keep snorring hahah! funny.. stayed at parra for a bit till i go moody cause ejay keep looking at his to watch ><"
look like he wan't d to go home. but no he waited for me to say somthing to him sighhhhhh!
After all that, got home and some how i apparenlty i broke immaree's friends capo arghhhhh!

mood: not good
currenlty: listening to my ipod.

tight ass tuesday :)

today is the day that my relatives gose back to the phils, well only my tito budie and tita amie. woke up around 11-ish before the clock hits 12pm afternoon time! hahah stupid of me didn't get to say goodbye to my relatives, too busy sleeping my bum away --' Then made my way to the computer hahah internet time :D
Did the normal routine going on facebook, myspace and listening to itunes with all the new songs that immaree download. Was on the computer for hours till i had to decide to do my hour and half walk around the block, with my kuya shanye {big brother and lilttle sister bonding time}.

Then after that me and kuya shayne also nanay set up the table for dinner, before the others come home from the park. Ate dinner, after went on computer agen doing the same thing myspace and facebook.

fun fun fun fun! made myself a banana milkshake, had do it twice coz the shake machine wasn't working --' then my baby ejay called hehe :D while i was making the shake..farrr didn't even get to finish it.. got full after drinking half of it lol! :P
After cleaning up my mess, ate jessica called saying that she dropping our basketball jersey for us, for you infromation"we waited for about a year now for them to come", and it finally come :) But it end being a waste of time waiting cause my jersey turnd out small, they got me and marielle sizes mixed up sighhh!

mood: pissed off ><" currenlty: talking to ejay :D