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HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME :)
thanks for everyone who celebrate my birthday esp to my fantastic 4 bunch
Ate Imelda, earl, Paul and big mark

Getaway plan.

Best getaway plan from the reality of life. Best week with my family and my bestie :D
Had so much fun and laughter's, will never forget those moments with my bestie and sister immaree. Wish i could spent again with family and bestie but a longer getaway.

Back to Sydney's Life.

Getaway;-

Won't be blogging for a while, not here in Sydney from the 17th to the 24th
and then it my birthday on the 27th :D
Greetings aye aye! ahhaha. anyway i try blog while I'm on my Holiday :)

Take care peoples.

last dance.

Sorry i haven't been blogging, been busy with work and been staying home this week, last time i was out with friends was hanging out at rousehill our second home.. LOLS! playing ball with the girls. And it die around 12ish cause people were leaving. But Me, ate Imelda, earl, ejay and paul stayed to play more ball and hangout till around 3am hahah cheeyyuuppp stayed at rousehill till 3-4ish am then head to M4 maccas as usually :)
got home around 5ish, even though i have work at 9. Lucky my dad didn't have work :) thats about it for my monday day off from work.

Tuesday, had work at 9am - 4pm

Wednesday, had work at 11:30am- 4pm

(update more later)

what a way to end a stressful day at the beach!

After work, i finish at 4:30ish, earl invited me to go beach with ate Ava and xyrus. Got home like 5ish, 5mins later they were there already at my place hahah! talk about being there! Well anyway drop my stuff, unpacked my work clothes and changes into shorts and singlet cause it was hott! Left home to go beach, end up at fresh water beach near manly. It was a small beach but it was a nice one. It reminder me of the hills show ahhah!
Any ways here some highlights of the beach as braw! :P

Change

Fresh year, its time to change everything to keep your life healthy and enjoyable.
- Starting from today, I'm sleeping before 11:30pm and wake up at 6am in the morning for work. Around that time i have time to set up my bag for work and eat breakfast for once! Catch the 7:50am bus to station and catch the 8am bus to work. Get to work about an hour early, time for me to rest before starting my shift.
- Less up on going out on the weekends and clubbing. Try and save money for my school/tafe and things that i really want in life. Example my DLSR camera Nikon or canon , external flash, fish eye lens, micro lens etc.
- Spent more time with my family, now that i have the weekends off and some days off from work.
- Start talking and spent more time with people that I'm close to and not take advantage of them.
- Start hanging out again with best Joel.
- Save money for the end of year Holiday
- Focus on yourself and others then material things.
- Live life.

Nothing

It dose hurt hearing from others how much they really hate you. And how freaking stupid you really are, and they always win at the end. Hearing from others how the feel on the stupid things you do, gets to you badly. It did to me and it still hurts right from this second! I never knew how much people really hate me for the things i do and how i just care about myself and not the others.

Cause that when you feel weak, weak to the point where you have no strength to walk or do anything. Cause everything you have is gone like that!

To them who reads this, YOU WIN! alright.. you have really hurt me and I'm not saying it so i could get everyone feeling sorry for me. From the start you always have hated me and how i treat everyone around me, but the way you express your feelings towards others hurts me more. And you having no guts telling me from the start how you feel about me... that i just don't really get about yous and i know that i haven't been the perfect sister or friend in the world you expected me to be. And I'm sorry for not being that expected sister or friend from the beginning. You say that i need professional help cause i can't control my feeling or I'm really metal in the brain that i can't even understand how life runs, so be it!

I have no power anymore to fix this with everything that i have cause.
I'm sorry for being the retared Sister, Daughter or friend
I know writing this blog doesn't do any jack shit!, it just pointless for a fucked up girl writing this to everyone who has hated me or still hates me. It just i hope whatever i do in life you will be happy cause i have fucked it bad. That's what you say to everyone, that i only think about myself. I tell you the reasons why I'm like this NOW!
i don't care it my blog is public to the entire world to read at less they know that someone it hurting much as you all do. And express how the feel about life that they living in at the moment.
I barely talk to the people that I USED to be close with, it so much harder to talk to people and they don't know how im feeling cause they don't understand my situation.
I know its easy....just to go up to people and let them know how they how your feeling. - refer to one person who thinks everything is her way. But seriously a note for myself, it s new year and start fresh cause if you stuff it up. Theres your year for you. sighh! :(

I'm sorry for everything and i mean it.

NYE & NY'09

-New year eve '08 at kuya boy's house
-New years, spent it at jamberoo with kuya boy, earl, lan, angela and others.