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It dose hurt hearing from others how much they really hate you. And how freaking stupid you really are, and they always win at the end. Hearing from others how the feel on the stupid things you do, gets to you badly. It did to me and it still hurts right from this second! I never knew how much people really hate me for the things i do and how i just care about myself and not the others.

Cause that when you feel weak, weak to the point where you have no strength to walk or do anything. Cause everything you have is gone like that!

To them who reads this, YOU WIN! alright.. you have really hurt me and I'm not saying it so i could get everyone feeling sorry for me. From the start you always have hated me and how i treat everyone around me, but the way you express your feelings towards others hurts me more. And you having no guts telling me from the start how you feel about me... that i just don't really get about yous and i know that i haven't been the perfect sister or friend in the world you expected me to be. And I'm sorry for not being that expected sister or friend from the beginning. You say that i need professional help cause i can't control my feeling or I'm really metal in the brain that i can't even understand how life runs, so be it!

I have no power anymore to fix this with everything that i have cause.
I'm sorry for being the retared Sister, Daughter or friend
I know writing this blog doesn't do any jack shit!, it just pointless for a fucked up girl writing this to everyone who has hated me or still hates me. It just i hope whatever i do in life you will be happy cause i have fucked it bad. That's what you say to everyone, that i only think about myself. I tell you the reasons why I'm like this NOW!
i don't care it my blog is public to the entire world to read at less they know that someone it hurting much as you all do. And express how the feel about life that they living in at the moment.
I barely talk to the people that I USED to be close with, it so much harder to talk to people and they don't know how im feeling cause they don't understand my situation.
I know its easy....just to go up to people and let them know how they how your feeling. - refer to one person who thinks everything is her way. But seriously a note for myself, it s new year and start fresh cause if you stuff it up. Theres your year for you. sighh! :(

I'm sorry for everything and i mean it.